Grillo: I don't know if I'm allowed to say it.
VanCamp: I saw a picture in the makeup trailer the first day we started working and I thought it looked pretty incredible.
Grillo: Can I say this? He's beautiful.
Mackie: See, I knew you wanted to say it.
Grillo: Am I not allowed to say that?
Mackie: It fits your personality.
Grillo: He is beautiful. That's all I'm going to say.
basically I just want 300 stories in which Bucky rediscovers pants feelings and undergoes confusing assassin puberty. That’s all I want.
Like, Bucky’s watching from a rooftop in Moldova through a scope, looking in through the window of Steve’s hotel room, and Steve comes out of…
This trapped animal look was awful. That’s not the Winter Soldier. That’s the scared little kid he turns into when he’s confused and in pain. Because the Winter Soldier is a machine. But when the scrap of Bucky that’s still in there starts banging around, the machine goes fetal and he just reverts to this child like thing.
And he knows there’s no help coming. There’s no extraction or exfil plan for the Winter Soldier. He gets himself out or he goes down with the ship. And he’s failed at his mission, so he’s probably expecting Steve to kill him here. He can’t understand why Steve saves him. He’s scared and he’s confused and he’s angry and he doesn’t like feeling any of these things because he doesn’t understand them at all and he liked it better when he didn’t have to feel them.
Oh god this hurts me on a fundamental level because I am convinced that Bucky never really stops wishing for the old days. Like, he comes back to Steve and Natasha and he is a person again, but when it gets intense and the nightmares are too much and he’s already called Sam three or four times to talk about it (because Sam doesn’t understand everything, but Sam knows how to talk to soldiers with PTSD and Bucky Barnes has got a RAGING case of it) he just wishes for Pierce to show up and put him in the chair and tell him it will be fine and just take it all away. Because being a thing is easy but being a person is too, too hard.
Wow I am seriously breaking the fuck up with you.
let’s hear it for captain america
#sebstan’s acting choices keep me awake at night#he made bucky so fond of steve but so bitter of the world did to him#it’s almost as if bucky believes the world corrupted steve#it took away his vulnerability#made him into the hero he shouldnt be#it’s almost selfish of bucky#fuck me im done (via punkrickgrimes)
"You turned my gentle friend into a weapon and I am less than thrilled about it"
#but see i look at this differently#i think it is selfish#but not in the regard to the world hurting steve#it’s selfish because he saw steve as the amazing kid from brooklyn his whole life#and it took steve physically changing for other people to see this#he’s angry that the world only fucking cares about captain america#steve rogers it the real hero#let’s hear it for captain america probably killed him to say#but saying let’s hear it for steve would not have gotten the same result#bucky didn’t expect to make it out of the war#but the one thing he held onto was steve being at home if he did#but that didn’t happen#so yeah clap for cap#but bucky knows that steve is the real hero#steve would’ve gone and rescued them muscles or not#but no one but bucky sees that#sebastian stan#mars#whoops long tags (via 95dogmes)
no this is definitely the case too like i see BOTH REASONS being the cause of this heart-wrenching look on Bucky’s face like ugh he is just ugh UGH
what if howard stark survived the car crash. what if he crawled his way out of the wreckage and collapsed a few feet away. his legs were completely shattered and even if they weren’t, his broken back would have made them completely useless anyway.
there’s no one for miles and he knows he’s going…